Friday, April 18, 2008

I’m a blessed mf

I aint trying to be sentimental and shit, but I got to get this out of me, although I need to drop this piece I wrote about John McCain and another post on Cubans in Florida. and the US governments history of laying with dictators. You know today, I realized how BLESSED I was. I have been dealing with a lot of shit inclusive of automobile trouble lately, well the last 4 weeks. And as such, it required that I utilize close to 2700$ on a rent-a-car, well really several rentals. Today, I returned the rental and picked up my truck. It still needed a manifold and it sounded like a laboratory run by a mad scientist (I resemble that remark). But it was drivable and that was good enough for me. Lil momma was in the back seat and we were in route to pick up lil daddy.

We got Jones, stopped by the shop for a few and headed to the cut. As soon as folk got on the highway, it stopped, I mean it cut off, sounded to me like the alternator although Jones here aint no auto mechanic. I was just BLESSED that my cousin was behind me. She was dropping off a cell phone for my son since his mom took it away from him because she didn’t like his attitude towards her husband (I think they married). When her husband, the adult was the one who cursed at my son. No I didn’t take it there, but I felt like it. See it does pay off to have brain cells.

I pulled over between the median, right adjacent to Grady Hospital. I was upset but never frustrated. My cousin attempted to give me a boost, but to no avail, I mean everything worked electrically so it wasn’t the battery. I asked her to take my son and daughter to my house and that I would be there. I had no money. No checks in from Morehouse School of Medicine, but mainly because I had not hit the bank and would not be able to. They left and I kept trying. I would have called my folk, but my cell was dead. I know big slim (owner of Do It Right Car wash), or Red (Jet Bail Bonding) or Damon (owner M Bar) or Tony Oh or Smooth or any my folk would have been there but I couldn’t contact them. Then my folk Willie Mitch Drove by, and then Vaughn, we had all gone and graduated from Morehouse College together. We tried but eventually had to push the car to the road. The last person to stop was this State Trooper, Officer Patton (see u at the signing). He was professional and cool to the max. We all talked, folks that we knew blew their horns and it almost turned into a mini Freaknic. I signed a book for the Officer. And Mitch took me to the cut,

I was BLESSED. All of this on a day when Jose, hadn’t done what he said he would, repair my truck, and on a day when I found out my daughters mother, well how can I say…Well put it this way, my mom left me with my granny while she was at Vanderbilt in graduate school. She and my granny told me it was crushing to her to leave me behind. But each break, she would return and spend each and every hour of the day with me until she went back. I was only two. My daughter’s mom says she misses her little princes (i'm sure she does honestly) and that she dislikes her being a daddy’s girl, but I found out she was in Florida, sloshed on the back of some motorcycle during bike week. Now she will say I am bashing her when what I said about my mom, her sentiments, and her selecting the latter (self) ovr child is true. I say the truth will set u free and free your mind and your ass will follow (George Clinton). Any who, my point is, Truck broke down, I found about the aforementioned, cell phone was dead, no loot in my pocket, no job, but I had a shipment of dog food come in, shop coming along fine, my friends were there for me to depend on, my kids were safe, and I never got or felt down at all. In fact I just smiled, just like the sun was doing on this 75-degree day in the ATL. I am BLESSED.

But I figure if it is the truth, it is the truth. I am a BLESSED MF. Not to mention I have no shame in writing what I experience. George Bush even says we bash him for no reason at all regarding the Iraq war when 1] he said it was over 3 years ago on a battle ship and 2] that they had wmd’s. But I’m home now, I got a 40-ounce and kids are loud as fuck. I do regret now going over to Jose’s last Friday with my pistol. Didn’t mean to scare him, cause it got me a fucked up deal, but it was that South Memphis in Jones that just seeped out accidently. But what the fuck, I mean, I’ll just spend more on my truck. So yawl support your folk, just another poor starving writer of the mad scientist variety who acknowledges that there is a thin line between brilliance and insanity…..and them two post coming next week.

39 comments:

PrettyBlack said...

Blessed indeed. Good shit happens to good people. I always say it's the company you keep that determines how far in life you go. And with people like that in your life you'll go far.

As for baby momma I can't speak on her because I don't know her but I do know a woman should carry herself accordingly when she has children. Whether she is with them or not.

You store will be a success and just like I said on my list of things I've learned so far...

The only way I'm staying down is if I'm praying or laying down...

Anonymous said...

Well someone was watching over you ...and to go off of what prettyblack said you have some decent people in your life....

Sorry to hear about your son and daughter's mothers and your car..but just as I believe the blessing that was bestowed on you today came through the positive energy you send out I believe the same will be for those in your life that send negative energy out towards you....its all about karma and reaping what you sow....

Anyways...good luck with your store and....have a great weekend!

IntrospectiveGoddess

That Girl Tam said...

Just reading all that made me tired. I'm sorry that your blessed day SUCKED ASS!! Sounds like my last week in March...

*sigh*

Such is life...

Blah Blah Blah said...

...so when I read the title of this post...
I started thinking you were gonna start spekaing about how blessed you were in the...
Well..never mind because I was clearly wrong.
*umm, but are you...you know...blessed...down...*

Please do not take your gun to anymore establishments, other than the gun range.

Moody Gemini said...

Understand it. You are blessed. Take care of yourself and your fam. That's all.

ATLien said...

Agreed...you are. Blessed that is! Life happens, sh*t stinks. Expect the unexpected and move on.

BTW...u didn't sign my book!

memphiz said...

In the words of Celie from "The Color Purple"...I'm Black, Poor, and may even be ugly...but by God I'm here! lol

peace

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

memphiz - well said

atlien - im sorry, i will

mody - me to, ish happens

blah - ive been told yes, very much so and yes maam

introapective - thank u

prettyblack - we all make choices and laying and praying sound good to me

Lovebabz said...

Yesterday my day was equally challenging. Started with a flat tire--that I do not know how to change. Thank God for my Brother he filled it with something so that I could drive to have it repaired. Then mix-up with Drs. Appointment and blood work all while observing the fast necessary for the blood work--nothing to eat from 10 pm the night before until 3yesterday afternoon. And throw in the coordination and sheparding of 4 children to their activities--because they are on vacation. (SIGH)

I am with you on recognizing our blessings cloaked under everyday chaos.

The True Urban Queen said...

That's what we have to do. Take a moment to look at all the blessings when we feel like our lives are cursed. I was abandon by my mother when I was young (haven't seen her since). I was left with an abusive father (and still I love them both). I stayed in a loveless marriage for years but in the end I have had my, health, my children, and my right state of mind.

Uzezi said...

it's my first time here, and ur profile scared the shit out of me even if i dont scare easily.
anyhow had to read this post twice then the headache abated. give ur daughter's mom a lil break now. just dont think of where she is and what she is doing. be happy for the opportuniity to be the one to give everytime to the kids. u r blessed like u say. maximize the blessing

mp1 v.8.0 said...

Reading that made em think of Ice Cube's Today was a good day.

Urban Thought said...

If every situation would have a great outcome like that.

Friends rolling by while you're on the side of the road needing help. Your children end up in a safe place...

Man... I'm happy it all worked out for you. That is a true testament of what's in your heart and how your mind works.

But the pistol... Don't get it. Did someone threaten you?

ShAé - ShAé said...

Blessed is as blessed does.. you must have come through for quite a few people at some point because it sounds like you could have had a helluva bad day. I'm glad to hear that people came through for you. Do we need to send you a cell phone charger? :-P

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

shae - yes i do, but i need a truck for it first lol

urban thought - i was wrong and i felt played and i wont do it agin.

MP - i love that soneg.


Vzezi - u are right, i should give her a break. sorry for affearing u

urban queen - we have to love period, otherwise there is hate. and i hate no one, dislike actions but the people

Babz - well said and thank u

Televisiontraci said...

Glad everything turned out all-right. You seem to do a great job of looking on the bright side of things and a good attitude is the most important thing you can have in life. Because no matter how much money you have, SHIT HAPPENS, and it's how you react to that shit that's important.

KELSO'S NUTS said...

Oh,my, T:

So much I could share on these topics. My boy's mother is not my favorite person in the world but as greedy and as big a pain in the ass as she is, you've got it worse. And you hear of too many bourgeois WHITE GUYS who have to depart and leave their child watched by grandparents in this day and age? Didn't think so. We make choices that are the best or least-worst under the circumstances and hope we have the strength to make it work. Somedays the stress becomes overwhelming and we wonder how we made it to nightfall in one piece!

You went to Morehouse, right? They only take the best. You got kids you love. You're one of the busiest and most ambitious guys I know.

Blessed is not something I can comment on because I'm neither religious nor spiritual. You're smart and lucky and you know what Einstein said about that.

Be well.

I can't wait for the McCain/Dictators post because right now I'm needing your man Obama to be all that with a kasha knish on the side come the fall.

We got a nice thing going on down here after The Big Dog let the Panamanian government close the bases and re-write their constitution their way. Sure as I'm typing this McCain's going to be messing in stuff here. I'm equally sure neither President Torrijos nor either of his likely successors Balbina Herrera or Juan-Carlos Navarro are too high up on McCain's list of favorite people.

If he's sober enough to know who they are, they'd probably rank somewhat more favorably than Ahmedinajad and a lot less favorably than about everybody else.

Everything I've read so far that Obama's said or written on South America policy couldn't suit me better.

guerreiranigeriana said...

wow!...what a day...but you are indeed blessed...its funny sometimes how bullshit like this makes you realize how blessed you truly are...i think your outlook on life is key because it allowed you to focus on the good when it would have been easier to scream 'woe is me!!!'...*scribbles some notes to herself*...

Tamra said...

This is why I absolutely LOVE reading your blog. Outlook is what it's all about. Thank you.

Awesome post.

ZACK said...

I'm a BLESSED MF too. But MF stands for Man of Faith in my case. :)

But think I don't be cussin'. Drop by my blog to see for yourself.

One Man’s Opinion said...

You funny, man. I'm glad that through it all you can still realize that you are blessed. And a little bit insane. LOL

Naro% said...

there is a thin line between brilliance and insanity….

yes indeed my friend, yes indeed. and you don't even have to ask about the book cover bro it would be my pleasure...
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ATLien said...

RawDawg...you've been TAGGED!

LadyWritesTheBlues said...

Aww no! Say it ain't so-you let the South Memphis out?!? Uh oh!

You know what? This post is really inspiring. I am going to stop fussing and count my blessings!!!

Freaky Deaky said...

Some people go to the grave never knowing how good they had it or how much worse things could have been. Hopefully, your outlook can be passed around to a few more people in the world.

msladydeborah said...

T,
WTF are you doing carrying a gun into any place? If you wasn't finna shoot somebody!

Please do not have your babies go through the agony of seeing you go to the po's house because you were carrying a gat.

You blessed daily my brother! The Word declares that. I take this post as a moment of recognition on your part. It was a blessing to have your folks roll through and be of the mind to help you.

I do not want to read your in jail story. So keep your act together.

Special K said...

How I love the south, it seems like someone you know always come around just in time to help ya. I didn't realize you stayed in the "A", we'll have to get up sometime when I'm home. I'll definitely add you (procrastinator).

The Jaded NYer said...

LOL! don't mean to laugh, but the part where you showed up at ol' boy's with a pistol SO reminded me of Johnny Depp's character in "Secret Window" (based on a Stephen King short story)... because YES, being a writer means one has to carefully straddle insanity and creativity...

The Bear Maiden said...

LOL. Had wunnadose days meself recently.

And yeah, that's when you realize that you are indeed, blessed.

And you also realize on those days that you are indeed an artist. Which is not the easiest thing in the world to be, let me tell you. But it's something in the way you're able to "roll with it" that makes you realize. I guess you're focused on other more important things like creating.

God takes care of fools and babies, so they say. And "fool" just doesn't mean "a person lacking in judgment or prudence" but can also mean "a harmlessly deranged person" and also "one with a marked propensity or fondness for something" and since artists tend to be deranged and have a marked propensity or fondness for writing/singing/painting/creating... well then, there ya go.

Be blessed.

And enjoy it :)

Foia said...

I don't have a problem w/ her being a daddys girl..but you talk big stuff like I don't do shit for her..or that I am NEVER w/ her. When I'm just trying to succeed in life..Just like then w/ Sue..you paint the picture that I'm the only one who causes problems..And you need to face reality buddy..you're comments are there. I just won't post any of our idiotic comments for my peeps to see on myspace..sorry.

And i'm sure your son was giving that womans husband problems just like he gave me. He's not an angel but just like you think you're ALWAYS right. I'm sure he doesn't have a touch of the devil in him..

As for me riding a motorcycle..so what? I came back to atlanta didn't I. If I didn't then thats when you should be concerned. You have a lot of insecurities..Don't you that ruined us..why not admit to that..

I love you though

crazy baby daddy..maybe you'll go get help like i've been asking you to..so we can get married and have another baby..but you wont..so ohh well

baby momma

If it makes you feel better to dawg me..raw dawg..then go right ahead..

Miss Mika said...

Blessed indeed.

It is wonderful that you are able to recognize them and acknowledge them.

Sounds like the truck might need an upgrade. I know if that had been me, I probably would have had an anxiety attack and passed out.

Continued blessings to you and yours.

Aly Cat 121 said...

must be the alignment of the stars, moon, planets or something cuz "weird" sh*t is happening to alot of folks. Surely a sign of better things coming.

Ms. Denae said...

Wow! I must say, I'm glad you were able to pull out positivity in all that...That's another blessing...that you were able to stay sane and see the positives for what they are worth...Take care.

kayellejaye said...

Yes, indeed...

I felt blessed when my car broke down last week in the parking lot and not on the highway.

PreciousGem-Beautifully Human said...

There's nothing wrong with getting a little sentimental and it's an amazing feeling to sit back and recognize..."wow, I am blessed"

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